Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Silent Screams

I fear for my sanity.

What if, after everything that we've discussed, calculated and analysed, we still fail? What if we can't change the future? What if Melanie and Felicity still die?

The circumstances in our timeline for their deaths were out of my control. Mel's illness happened without our knowledge in 2010. Felicity chose in 2012. I have no reason to feel as guilty as I did, and do. Yet they meant so much to me, and I never got the chance to say goodbye. I never got the chance to talk Felix out of the rope. I was too late to say goodbye to Mel.

That was my greatest failure. I never got to say goodbye to Mel.

Do you know what Mel's last words were in 2010 our time?

"Where's Ted?"

My last words to her were a week prior.

"I'll see you soon, Mel."

I couldn't stop Death from taking them both from me. I couldn't do anything from where we came, and by God, I will steal them back.

I must. I don't want to bury them again.

-Ted

(Originally published 12/4/2016)

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